God's Plans for Me Not According to my Plan

I am 35 and single. I've always been plan-oriented. I like to know how my days will go and be able to check things off the list. I've made certain plans that I wanted to achieve before the age of 30. Good job out of college? Yes. Married by 30? Yes. Family of my own? No. Divorced? Sadly by 30. 

Unfortunately, that's not how life works. Life doesn't work according to a plan, at least not our own. We have very little that we can control (our emotions, thoughts, feelings, opinions), but the big picture is something out of our control.

I have a lot of fear of the unknown. But I have to have faith that God has great plans for me if I trust in Him. I don't know how much time I have on this earth, but I'm 35 and I want to be remarried again and have a family of my own. I want to have a good paying job that makes me happy, related to music. I want to travel the world and meet all kinds of people everywhere.

I want so much of this life, and I hope that I can find happiness again. But maybe that's where solitude is a necessity for my recovery: I've had so many failed relationships with men after my divorce in December 2006, that I need a time out from all of that. Maybe I need to recognize the possibility that I may be single for the rest of my life. But I won't be alone. I have family and friends that care for me. What else do I really need in this life?